TILT # 17 I am not everybody's cup of tea...

I started today really angry at being left out of a meeting. I was livid because I have spent years ensuring people around me are included and nobody lacks for information so people can make informed decisions and the one time I was missing from the picture, nobody cared to check in on me. Or at least that is how I perceived it. When I inquired why my team did not look for me, one response was that they had assumed I was busy elsewhere. Strange as I have never once failed to advise people when I would have to miss meetings so my team could be my eyes and ears during my absence. Made me wonder what sort of ladder of inference they were using for those assumptions.

The situation made me think of others during the last half a year of new adventures with new people. I feel like I have been trying hard to fit in, even trying to be who I am not, so as to be accepted. Well, it's not working. I will not always feel accepted everywhere I go because to be dreadfully honest, I am not everybody's cup of tea. I have to stop apologizing for that. I don't enjoy everybody else all the time either and that's fine. Not everyone who crosses my path will automatically make it to being my cheerleaders nor will they want to. Not everyone I meet will want me on their team for whatever the reason. I am making peace with that.

During these extraordinary times of Covid-19 measures, things and people that need my attention have just tripled. I have to be even more careful now with how I respond to those external factors while preserving who I am. I am not going to overextend to those who have proven they don't care if I do or I don't. I will reserve my best and my all for those who actually appreciate it and grow from it.

I am not everybody's cup of tea and I am okay with that. Enjoy the photo. I looked for the original author but came up empty. If anybody knows who the author is, drop me a line. I wish to credit this well.