TILT # 3: Choose to be the eagle

This weekend was another one chock-full of learning and revelation. In a group activity, I experienced an internal struggle to answer the question of my relationship with ambiguity in the past month. I struggled because I have a pure hate relationship (not even love-hate) with the word and how it manifests in my life. As I said to my team members, if I could kill "ambiguity", I'd kill it. And to make sure it's dead, I'd kill it again. No joke.

My other response to ambiguity is to throw a temper tantrum like a little child, belly down on the floor, pummelling the floor with my chubby fists and my short legs waving in the back. No. No. No!! I don't like you! Get lost! I don't know what the answer is when you're around. Go away!

Sadly, while such behaviour is understandable and acceptable in a daycare or Kindergarten class, it is not as much appreciated at graduate school.

On days like these, I reach for something in my past that I can use as an anchor and this precious nugget came to mind. I had read somewhere (I think it was in a book by Priscilla Shirer) that when an eagle senses an approaching storm, it does not fly away to avoid it. The eagle locks its wings as the winds arrive and lets the strength of the gusts carry it through and above the tempest. The eagle uses its natural capacity to face the storm.

I want to be like the eagle. I don't want to keep flying away from difficult situations. I want to lock my wings and know that I can use the power that is inside and outside of me carry me through a time of painful learning.

Beloved, I have no idea what year it will be when you finally read this post or how old you will be but when you do, remember the eagle and know that you too, have the power to "lock your wings" and use the storm to help you soar higher than you can imagine. My own storm has arrived. I'll let you know how it looks on the other side when I get there.

Much love and prayers for you.

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